They say that when the student is ready the teacher appears, and I really feel like a student at the moment. I shared one time recently about the different levels of awareness in my journey to recovery and in the subtopic when it says "seeming inability to accept much on faith", I realised that it was in fact just that.. a seeming inability.
The fact is that at the moment my God has blessed me with the grace to realise that I am part of Him/Her/Universe/Love, that dwells in me - and - when I can observe the noise of my thoughts, move past them, connect with that wonderful life giving Source/Spirit within me, that I am blessed with peace, serenity, clarity of thought.. and faith.
I am so grateful for all the negative experiences of my past that have led me to this point.
If I had not lived the life I have so far, I would not be at this point of learning. I have so much hope and so much excitement about the way I am learning. The way my deepest desire - which has always been for peace of mind and serenity in my spirit, is being realised.
Now, I am not walking about all rosy cheeked and happy all the time!!! However, I am aware that I can watch my thinking, stop, breathe, look at my feelings, feel them without being consumed by them and then choose what action I take. What freedom that brings - being connected with my HP is the single most important part of my journey.
When I am connected to my Source I hear the truth, I have acceptance of how everything is in the present. I am not the summation of my past nor the projections of my future. I am just who I am now; beautiful, present, loved, recovering and connected to my God. When I am in OA meetings I am connected to every single person receiving recovery, love and acceptance - that is such a strong foundation for my recovery, my faith and my journey today. Thank you - I really really appreciate it.
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