Friday, December 20, 2013

Thank You and Goodbye Forties, Hello and Welcome Fifties!

2013 - The year I turned 50!  I found a letter I had written to myself when reflecting on my 40's and contemplating what my 50's will bring.. I hope you enjoy my musings.

My boys, my angel and I at my 50th Party

                                            
Thank you and goodbye forties, HELLO and welcome fifties..

I am sitting here thinking of all the 'gifts' my forties bestowed upon me.  It has been a decade of lessons, of growth, of change, of surrender and of forgiveness and acceptance.  I am completely aware that all I went through in this decade has been the result of my thinking, my choices, my attitude; I have had some painful emotional times and I have had periods of beautiful spiritual awareness, of learning to love myself, of realising the power of living in the moment and how my thinking creates my world.

I am so grateful for all I have been through - even the hard yards.  Looking at myself has not been easy, but I have been willing and still am, to continue to heal, grow and change for the better in my fifties.

I am deeply grateful for the help I have received in caring for Caragh - surrendering to ask for help was difficult, but once I managed to let go a little, it made life so much easier.

I am also joyously grateful for the most wonderful European trip I did last year.  It has to be one of the highlights of my life to date and I will travel like that again in the near future.  This world is so beautiful, there are so many breathtaking sights to see: architecture, history, Art, Music, Cultures.  The whole trip was food for my soul and showed me my emotional strength, courageous spirit and that I am a much stronger person than I think I am.


A beautiful card from a beautiful friend - front page pic of me in Oia, Santorini, August 2012
      

In my forties I lost my way for a while, but soon found my way back to the real me.  To who I am at the deepest level.  My essence.

I am laughing here because another thing I am very grateful for is my little dog Seb!! He brings so much simple joy to my home.

Seb - he's a prince!
                                                               

I am very grateful for my job, for being an Editor of SCRIBE magazine, for being able to work part-time and from home. It is a real blessing.

Click here if you want to see the online issues of Scribe Magazine

If someone asked me to list all that I desire for the next decade and then into my sixties, seventies and eighties - here is the list:

 I am going to have:

  • A healthier self-esteem
  • A love and continued commitment to my exercising lifestyle
  • A beautiful, loving relationship
  • To grow even more in self-love and self-care
  • To be a normal weight ( lol my LIFE to date's mantra.. hopefully my fifties sees this one come true)
  • A normal, 'free' lifestyle because Caragh will become more independent
  • Financial Security
  • I am able to always put my needs first by having a healthy regard for myself
  • Continue to develop a deep spiritual connection with my God
  • I am HAPPY
  • I always choose the healthiest options for my life, for my emotional and physical health and for my spirituality
  • I surrender each day to God.
  • I LOVE life
  • I LOVE my friends
  • I LOVE me
  • I am blessed. 
Karen you are perfect in your imperfections, and it's about time (remember your'e a kick in the pants off 50 woman!!) you truly love and accept yourself just the way you are! So BRING ON THE GOLDEN YEARS, I'm ready for some fun!!!

Karen x



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